//5

the clock was ticking and it was 11.00 pm. my playlist was playing yuna again and again.lets talk about the sudden change. lets talk about where ive been missing. 

hoyeah hoyeah lets read!

since than, i forgot all the conflict between us.
since than, i sink into the fantasy that the novelist try to create.
since than, i ignore all the sudden change in this house.

“Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers.” 
― Charles William Eliot

macam biasa, review bermula dengan kulit buku luaran. aku ni memang mudah ter-influence dengan cover buku yang simple. yang penting senang tafsir. direct to the point. kalau tengok kulit dah tau ape yang nak disampaikan.mudah faham mudah? tak meleret. ade konflik.tapi terkawal.

salah ke bace novel indie? no. tak salah. i appreciate  yang mana bagus. cinta leleh melayu ke, fantasi tak logik ke. ape ape asalkan yang penting bagus. iye bagus.

bagus sebab boleh buat aku sanggup bace 3, 4 kali. sebab jalan cerita sedap. and ending buat aku rasa tak puas hati. macam makan popcorn time tengok movie. tak boleh berenti. faham?

AWEK CHUCK TAYLOR

"Im not a bitch. I AM THE BITCH. im the bitchest than all bitch out there, kenapa? nak jadik title contender ke untuk title bitch dengan i?" Mira.

****

 "You cakap pasal hidup tanpa kawalan la, anarchistla, nihilist la, tapi kene control dengan awek sendiri, cakap pasal rebel tapi takut awek,"Mira.

****

"Because hafiz, die tu pain in the ass. nak bawak jumpa parent la, cerita kawen la, cerita segala isi babi yang ada dalam alam melayu, and i hate that," Mira.

****

"Seriously i dont give a fuck kalau budak umur 6 tahun panggil aku nama. Aku tak suka orang panggil aku abang,because i hate ranks. Just because aku dilahirkan awal kau kene respect? kalau bangang walaupun lahir awal buat apa? sebab tu bila anak anak buah gua panggil gua abang.stop.panggil gua nama. respect will come not because of ranks, but because of yourself,"Hafiz.

****

"Hey Hafiz soalan aku macamni. simple. Mira atau Nana? no grey area. peluang 50-50. coin flip rules. final bola walau macamana sekali pun- mesti ada satu yang menang. Mira, Nana. Mira, Nana. walaupun terpaksa dua poloh sepakan penalti pun-satu pemenang. kau kene plih", Aiman.

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well the reason aku quoted mira banyak2. sebab aku suka watak Mira. Adore.
well theres a reason why i hate Hafiz so much. bukan benci sangat. Geram.

//4

i nak jadik macam yuna dengan aizat boleh?

"andai nya ku hilang, biarlah lagu ku jadi temanmu,

tidak semestinya semua cerita cinta kan berakhir sesempurna seperti kita impikan"

goodnight love,

sejak Qi clash dengan Yuna, i tengok jalan2 cari makan pun takde selera.

sejak Aizat rapat dengan Yuna, i jadik suke dekat kumis Aizat.

//3

FOUNDATION OF AGRICULTURAL SCIENCE 

"DINNER OF THE YEAR"

i tought ths would be the most enjoyable night, im wrong. not too wrong, theres still a little bit taste of enjoy here and there with all buddies. 

im the one that was being so tegar, for not paying fr this night. it cost me rm60 for only one night. lol .

did you know with this money?

i can buy 2 pairs of shoes, at least cotton on shoes

i can eat subway almost 4 times.

i can watch my favourite movie fr 4 times (without couple seat)

and rm 60 boleh buat belanje makan for 2 weeks dekat UPM( ish ish)

bla bla bla

it started when all the ballons were all realesed to the ceiling, wehuuuu (awkward cheers)

and end with the photography session by me, of course me (fitrazainal) the one who love herself to be in everyone camera.

cheese cheese plus that peace peace

mihmihmih

dont have any boyfriend here, to be sedondon(saying this with tears)

but gratefull to have a lot of girlfriends! 

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 anonymous : weh mule mule kaula ala-ala PR (parti pembangkang) yg against  HICOM (kerajaan) menentang bayaran dinner! 

 ni apesal kau ade terpacak malam ni?

yaya and me : theres an angel come and paid for our rm 70 ! 

yehaaaaaaaaa!!!

by the way, anuar zain malam tu memang buat aku melting kuasa 3

//2

My hell-yeah-holiday started with this kind of speech.

Thank you for knowing me the deepest. For remembering the little things. For those lonely nights where all I could hear was the sound of your voice till I would awake with you telling me how I snored. 

Thank you for the little notes, the way you'd notice the smallest things. The way I'd laugh and how my eyes observed the things around me. 

Thank you for reminding me who I was everyday, to be strong and to cope when I was full of dislike towards what I was doing. How we'd stop to prioritize and continue what we've started.

Thank you for teaching me to appreciate and to care. To be my muse of writing and to love what I loved to do.

 Thank you for teaching me of hurt and love, which led me back to where I was supposed to be.

//1

tulis padam. tulis padam. tulis tulis simpan lagi sekali.
tangan gatal nak tulis, tapi takde hati nak luah, 
tangan rase nak berlari atas keyboard, tapi hati taknak cakap.

kronik kronik.
lets start our holiday journey . hell yeah!