its not a fault for a teenager like us go to the market to buy something that our mom ask . but this is the result.when a teenager going there . all the list of things had been forgotten due to the all loud laughter made by this four weird creatures . sorry mum .
long lost friends . meet khalil family there . adik manis baju biru abang bangla mahu fb adik boleh? twitter boleh ? boleh tag abang di belakang . abang kasi satu tudung free punyaa . jangan risau .
i keep wondering again and again why do you wrote this on a sand . you know that i worried that it might wash away when theres a huge wave . people can also erase it using their feet . im totally afraid .why dont you just write it on stone and throw it at your face so that you get the pain and the scars that will last longer . it would be much more better . at least you will always remember me .
Im very emosional . dont play with my heart .I'm fine. I hate you. I love you. I want ice cream. Come here. Get away. You're cute. Fuck off. Fuck that. Fuck this. sorry im having pms .
bangun pagi awal tak semestinya menjanjikan kebahagian sepanjang hari . hujan lebat makin rancak .menghirup secawan teh o panas malam-2 yang dingin buatkan aku tersedar sesuatu.
10 tahun yang lalu semua kehilangan sebutir bintang . 22 feb 1992 . penyebab kematian sebenar masih menjadi tanda tanya . entah . aku tersentuh bile lagu-2 dia didendangkan . walaupun masa aku lahir , dia dah tiada .
bagi aku kematian dia sangat misteri , perjalanan hidup saat-2 hari terakhir dia . memang sangat sentuh .
"This song is especially for all Malaysians regardless of race and religion, and one of its messages is we must live united as one family, on God's earth, without differentiating race, colour, status or ancestry," Sudirman told his audience on the night of March 9, 1991.
nobody can replace his voice . al fatihah . sudirman arshad in memory .
i am climbing this stairs but i dont really know where am i going after this long journey .i can only pray that im climbing the right one . god lead me to right path .
its raining again and again tonight . sometimes its not that im not gratefull for what god give to us , but a heavy rain in the late night really cant give me a calmness . im afraid of dark . lately i always wake up in the late night like 4am , or 3am something-2 . im afraid i would see something that i dont wanna see . with a heavy rain outside i cant go to bed back .
im telling you im tired but actually im very hurt inside . do understand me .
ermm days go day by day . at last i have a quite long conversation *fighting with you . huh . should i be the one that just sad or the one with that so sad ? i dont really care about that . but for me last night fight really make me feel arhhh . im tired of all this . long distance relationship was quite hard for me . seriously . i have so much to say but you so far away .really far away . plans of what our future holds sometimes. foolish lies of growing old . it seems were so invincible . the truth is so cold now. sometimes im quiet confident but sometimes i lost hope .
hujan renyai-2 bertambah lebat buat aku tambah feel dengan lagu dear god kumandang . i hope this would be long lasting . aminn .
*because im lonely and im tired of missing you away .
well some search never finding away
before long they waste away
. i found you , something told me to stay
. i gave in , to selfish way . how i miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade*
kalau hang ade gurlfren bagai aku merayu jangan bagi lagu nii . bukan setakat cair hati awek hang , cair dengan taik telinga sekali , kegelian hati dengar .muaah . lol .
bangun-2 pagi awal . teringat kawan sekelas aku yang dapat lagu ini daripada boyfreng baru dia . aummm . sweett nyaa . kawan-2 baik dia semua tertawakanya macam dirasuk setan bila tahu boyfren barunyaa memberi sebuah lagu yang sangat muahh ini .
en muah siapa suruh jual mahal dulu , sekarang encik suda kalah dengansuperman gagah . byee .
to keep myself alife until today and tomorrow . i did a lot of things . a LOT OF . i do have to wake up so early . my bestfriends call me and ask me to join her there . i cant give her answer anymore. im enjoying myself watching telenovela in tv3 . with a very hillarious laugh with my sister .
im lack of dollar right now. money-2 please be nice to me . do increase your amount day by day . im still tryimg to save you every single day . please be honest to me . im begging you .
right now im hoping that if i ever get up from bed and theres a packet of dollar by my side . i need a holiday . really . im dying here . seriously .
I can laugh because I've known sadness. I am fearless because I have been afraid. And I am wise because I've been foolish before. reality life outside really make me feel like hell .
somehow i keep thinking and I'm still waiting for the day that I will actually use x² + y +8 [(x + 2y ² = a-z] + 2x ³ + (- 2z = 2. 4) + 10y - 5Z ³= k= 9 in real life.. LOL . thats why i used to hate addmath before . i cant even count my money with that .
malam ni aku rasa sangat mengantuk macam baru lepas ambil dadah . dadah yang doktor perubatan bagi .
ubat ni buat aku rasa pening macam baru lepas kena spray dengan ridsect .
kaki sebelah rasa macam kena strok sebab kerap tekan cluc tadi . macam-2 sakit malam ni. rasa nak tidur cepat-2 tapi tangan rasa gatal nak online . esok saki tangan pulak .padan.
after buat endoscopy hidung dua-2 belah rasa terlebih besar dari saiz biasa .endoscopy = examining the inside of a person's body using an endoscope. endoscopy hidung tapi look like ass pulak bila dah print out gambar. hidung cakap dia rasa macam dicabul sebab dah diterokai sampai tekak dengan kamera . kesian hidung siapa suruh selalu buat hal .
hidung tolong jangan buat hal lagi lepas kau dah sesah 100 lebih duit . okey , mulut kena pantang minum ais jugak kate hidung. kena pantang macam-2 lagi kalau taknak hidung buat hal . jangan sampai umur dua pulohan hidung dah rongak . hidung pesan dekat mulut . maka mulut pun akur kadang-2 .
fit fit sudah sudahlaa . tidur . esok nak jadik cikgu tuisyen tak berbayar . lusa ade ujian sains . i dont know if i awake or asleep when i wrote this .all i know is you came to me when i was at the lowest . malam ni aku tidur dengan senang hati sebab perut aku sangat kenyang .
sorry , i just cant to answer your call , reply all your text because im screening your number . i have told you before . please act like were just friends . im someone else right now , you must understand my condition . dont try to get me back . were not a lover anymore .
aku tak kisah . aku cuba jadik friendly . aku jadik orang yang open . aku layan hang macam aku layan kawan-2 lain aku . kawan faham ?
sampai satu tahap aku rimas . rimas dengan perangai kau.aku rasa macam nak terus terang tapi nanti kau kate aku bajet hot . bajet cool . bajet cantik . bajet ramai orang nak . takpe aku diam jela .
tadi kan , tadi aku rasa macam nak suruh hang diam kejap . takpun aku nak upah bodyguard aku suruh belasah kau . cakap kau ni menganggu privacy aku .
aku harap kau faham . kau terima hakikat , kita kawan jah . jangan over . jangan sampai satu tahap aku terus malas kawan dengan kau . ignore kau .
tak . tak aku bukan bajet hot . aku cuma rimas kadang-2 . tolong faham . terima kasih .
errmm . somehow i can stop my mind to still remember the past . i knew everyone know this band . im addicted to this band when im still form 1 . hahhh . zaman muda-2 remaja nak membesar laa . zaman kejatuhan . zaman ramai orang suka gothic , punk rock , emo , apa jadah lagi aku tak hingat . yang paling aku tak tahan bila ade gothic al islam laa , konon-2 macam gothic tapi pakai tudung . memng rasa bangga melepak dekat shopping-2 complex dengan pakai baju hitam , merah putih . phuii bangga time tu . aku budak gothic , hang budak apa > budak emo . wahhh . kita tak sehaluan . yang jadik ikon keade budak-2 gothic dulu , mestilaa group my chemical romance . wootwoott . kalau dengar lagu bukak kuat-2 dalam mp3 , rasa feel je . tak hingat apa dah .
padahal kalau tengok lirik ade yang boleh pesongkan . tapi kira apa time tu , trend kena laa ikut . lirik semua hafal macam hafal nota sejarah . jahil jahil . aku tahu semua mesti malu bila hingat pernah terjebak zaman-2 ni . zaman ni dah habis ye? my chemical romance yang dulu dibangga-bangga kan pun dah tukar haluan , jadik pop rock .
tadi petang-2 masa hujan tengah rancak dekat luar , aku dengar balik lagu-2 ni . huh . masih boleh nyanyi dalam hati . rasa keras sikit hati . huh . aku cakap betul laa dengar lagu-2 macamni boleh keraskan hati sikit . tak banyak pun sikit laa . banyak kata-2 kesat .try laa dengar . ermm kadang-2 aku teringat perangai aku time tu . okay , aku rasa akulaa segala-2 nya . aku yang sangat bebas tanpe batasan .dalam fikiran aku cakap parents aku bukan tahu pun . banyak bende-2 pelik aku nak try . semua . pelajaran time tu masih lagi penting laa sebab aku duduk sebelah budak ranking num satu . haha .
kalau boleh aku nak pergi balik zaman nii dah start it all lover again . memilih rakan-2 yang tidak sekepala dan hidup secara sederhana . tapi ape aku boleh buat permulaan hidup dah aku mulakan dengan perkara macam ni . rasa nak balik zaman itu betulkan segala perkara .
kalau siapa yang satu zaman dengan aku mesti akan ade rase menyesal . tapi spm pun dah habis . dah dekat tiga bulan dah cuti . result pun dah tertulis . takpe . lets move on . orang cakap bagus untuk menyesal tapi jangan meratapi . teruskan hidup dengan sesuatu yang fresh dan berubah . mngkin ada hikmahnya setiap yang terjadi . dont look back unless its a good view .
ermm .ermmm . aku cuma boleh berdoa nya , tunjukkkan aku jalan yang lurus . aku harap bila aku dekat tempat baru . aku takkan terpesong lagi . takkan biarkan pisang berbuah lima kali . aku nak mula sesuatu yang baru . hope .
last night was tragic . i dont have a chance to update my bloggie . damn , lipas hitam terbang telah spoilt mood aku sepanjang malam.damn aku rasa sangat depressed down segala-2 perasaan . i feel useless . because i cant even answer geografi form2 question . ohkay , im totally lost . ahh i cant even remember that . yess kesian adik aku . i should be the one yang guide her . but i cant even answer that simple question . so today i woke up very early and try to check the reference book and study . hell . its so long i didnt do somethnig like this . study .its quiet difficult until i have to ask him to guide me .
( ii )
im begging you pakcik driving school . please give me lesen P as soon as possible . seriously i do need it .so that i can took my family everywhere. i keep wondering . kenapa flow nak amik lesen dekat malaysia sangat susah dan sangat lah mahal . i dont think everyone can afford it. but im sure everyone need that damn much. see now i cant even send my sister to the school this evening . so that she would miss the badminton class .
im feeling guilty about that. im here at this house but i can even help her with that.
( iii )
i text him first . ermmm . its his first day there . takpe for the first week i would text him first . then for the second week i will just wait and see . i hate it when i have to wait for you . please understand me . eventhough im not telling you .
last conversation with you keep reminds me all those things happen ;
syairah aqilah , adilah farhanah , atira fauzess , umu aiman , azmalia alias , fatin hawani, adawiyah zulkifli , khairunnisa kamarudin , miera azman , azila azahar , awatif hashim , ainul saadah and all of my friends out there .
dear bestfriends youre stupid. you fail . youre weird . youre not perfect . but thats okay . im like that too . we laugh at the randomest things . you know my ugliest side . eventhough were disagreed sometimes , when im sad youre always there to make sure im okay . thanks for being there for me . i cant promise you that i would be there for you anytime you need me , eventhough were now not close to each other but i promise that will try to be in your shoe damn , ahh why ? why i keep remember those sweety memories we have been together . btw , aku tak sabar tunggu nak amik result yang super duper . mwant to meet you guys . hope so eventhough ade yang dah pergi futher study . hah , jelessshh .
im kinda interested with this video . the director was really creative because he can show the reality of life. the background , place and also the song .laughter is the best medicine after all .membuat lawak di pentas lebih susah daripada menyanyi di AJL kerana kadang-2 anda ditertawakan oleh lawak anda , ataupun anda ditertawakan kerana anda kelihatan bodoh . somehow i really love this show . a girls really love a cool men that can make a jokes there . alert men .sebagai seorang penganggur aku lebih banyak spend time untuk menonton rancangan ni a lot of times . berulang dan ulang. i cant just stand to laugh eventhough i have seen the show so many time . damn malam ni aku tengok ulang-2 kali sambil texting dengan si ehem-2 . ermmm , tomorrow would be the day ehem-2 register . hurhh . not feeling so good about that actually . but has to move on ,its his future . i really hope that we can calling-2 malam ni . can hah ? but im too sleepy .
ahh .its a friday morning . a very good start for everyone. may god blessed your day . woke up early in the morning ,fresh day to have here. hear a very weird sound , nahh . somehow i feel like it kind of tear of somethings . i keep searching and i found this awesome god creatures
my mum said that the cats mother would take them right after they gave birth. when there is no people around because it would shame to see human around. just let them there .
cat are not like human , easily throw their baby everywhere , without even any guilty in their heart
. somehow i think human nowadays are really sucks than animal that full of love eventhough they dont have a brain like human .
and now i realise i have a very short time to be spend with you , since were really far to each other . and now again you will left me behind . ermm .i found this video and somehow i think its really close to us . this song recall me of all the three years we have spend together in the same class of E . theres a lot of things happen . conflict that really make us grow stronger but it all overhelmed by the power of love . nahh . this very first post about you , it makes me feel awkward but after all it makes me smile .without you my days are *sadday , moanday, tearsday, wasteday, thirstday, frightday,and shatterday . hah , a little bit over words there . dont worry its just a little bit methaphore there.
"And I smile a lot now,
A lot happier somehow
No I dont know what is up with me
I laugh too much recently
No they dont know much about us
When we're exchanging glances
They'll figure out one day
it all begin with a simple confession
you had an urge to kiss me
i was in the verge to miss you
and then it happen
but we didnt understand
no i would even budge
before we didnt hang out much
save me on your playlist
so you wouldnt forget this"
all your words are still in my mind and its grows founder day by day ,
"fitra ,sometimes i wish you were in my shoes , so that one day you will understand my pain i go through with you . relationship are worth fighting for but sometimes i cant be the only one fighting "
somehow im speechless to hear this words from you .
shez , its quite over to mention your name here . but i dont care this time .
maybe its so hard for me to show you how much i care about you ,
sometimes maybe im too ego about that
but believe me love is language spoken by everyone but understood only by the heart
i would rather keep my feeling here .
dear heart .
dear comes in life when you have to let go all of the pointless drama and the people create it
and surround yourself with people who makes you laugh that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good
after life i realise life is too short to be anything but happy
panas panas dan panas . memadangkan aku menetap di taipng yang sangat lembap iklimnyaa , make warga taiping mula mencari kepanasan setelah asyik lembap di kota sendiri . aku mengajak seluruh warga taiping mahupun serata dunia , memanaskan diri di sini . kolam air panas trong menjadi destinasi terbaik .
sebelum ni kami pernah mandi manda sini , sampai adik aku hampir lemas . then kami trauma dan terus lupakan lokasi ini . namun selepas beberapa ketika keluar dalam mirteri nusantara pasal kolam ni . arrrrhh sudahh . ade entiti dikatakan disini . mari sini lihat ini gambar , maka dapatlahh anda rungkai kan entiti tersebut .
kawasan perkampungan yang agak menyeramkan . auwww *anjing menyalak
ade nampak ape-2 tak ? haaa tak tahuuu .
ade banyak pilihan kolam , ade kolam dewasa , sederhana , bilik mandi . celup celup pun ade. macam sunyi jeh kan ? sebb aku pergi pagi-2 . orang tak mandi dari rumah la katekan . hewhew
this is what we called as celup-2 roarrr menggelupur kuman kaki kaki aku
kalau ade ketuat kah , cagun kah. panau kah . bolehlaa cuba .tapi aku takdek laa . aku cuma bagi saranan . hoho
bagi yang mahu privacy lahh katekan . nak mandi ala-2 dekat rumah . siap ade kolah khas . nak air panas . sederhana boleh request
haa inilahh yang masuk misteri nusantara tuh , ingat ke ? katenye ade entiti suka mandi malam-2 . syuihh . taknak cerita lebih . takot oo
kolam tempat adik aku hampir lemas , yang misteri nyaa . kolam cetek . tiba-2 terkapai kapai . ermmm
jumpa tak entiti ? tak lettuw . usha laa lagi banyak-2 kali . nanti hang nampak . aku taknak aa bagitahu . aku takott aa.
aku cuma ade satu pesanan ; jangan biarkan hidup anda diselebungi meisteri . AUWUUUUU . minggu depan aku nak try pergi malam . nak tengok apo lagi yang bestt dekat sini .
aku nur fitrah ; bukan nur izzah sangat teringin hendak menikmati kek batik . DAMN SERIOUSLY . kalau aku tak dapat makan kek batik dalam mase seminggu lagi makanya aku akan mati kempunan. aku akan menghantui semua orang yang berkaitan . aku sangat berterima kasih kepada shezraill yang telah buat aku mengidam bende ni . aku telah memaksa si shezzrail untuk mengajar aku membuat kek ini .tiade orang lain yang lebih layak unuk mengantikan chef zamir kecuali chef shezzrail . LOL .
okyy dah masak , lantak . aku main masuk je segala ape yang bahan ade kat situk . aku duduk sibuk tengok resipi sampai hangit bahagian bawah . bukan salah aku . nahh salah kau laa text aku .siapa suruh .
muka penuh kegembiraan melenyek kek batik macam nak lenyek tanah rasanya . aduhh penat , lenguh badan . kalau ade orang sanggop ganti tempat aku lenyek , akan ku bagi duit seribu .
mak dengan ushu pun tolong lenyek lenyek . ambik hang sampai dua , tiga tangan duduk lenyek .fuhh bau kek lepas masak . macam bau dekat secret recipe . aku tak tipuu oo . jiran aku pun boleh terliurr
muka tak boleh lebih excited lagi dapat makan kek batik puas puas sampai boleh simpan untuk bekalan di kemudian hari . kalau aku ade kawan kerja pos laju akan ku hantar sample kek aku kepade semua rakan rakan seantero dunia. tapi malangnya aku cuman buat satu loyang dan aku tak ada kawan kerja pos laju .
TADAAAAA ;
nahhh , aku tak amik dekat google eh ? ini memang real punya kek batik hasil titik peluh aku . aku tahu semua bakal terliurr . sabar sabar yee , nanti birthday kau orang aku pos . YEAHH .
mungkin laa ade yang berminat nak buat dekat rumah , aku sangat galakkan sebb mudah dan hasilnya sangat memuaskan; disebbkan aku baik hati aku bagi recipe sikit . do enjoy yea; nanti jangan lupa bayar aku . hehe
BAHAN BAHAN ;
1) butter setengah buku
2)milo setengah cawan , ke secawan ke
3)biskut marie 600g , kalau nak sedap beli yang timbang . dia ade kemanisan asli .
3)susu pekat manis setengah tin
PROCEDURE ;
1) panaskan butter dalam periuk kace / kuali ke ape ke sampai cair . kacau sampai dah cair . keep kacau sampai tak berketul ketul . jangan duduk tinggal macamtu je . nanti hangit . padan muka
2)masukkan susu pekat manis setengah tin sambil kacau *api kasi slow je sepanjang masak , jangan bukak api macam nak masak keuw teow goreg pulak
3) masukkan milo , based pade pengamatan aku , better if milo tu bancuh dulu . tapi kalau malas sangat hang masuk jea macam aku . main agak2 jeaa, masuk yang serbuk terus . ini bagi yang malas sangat laa
4)hang kacau laa , sampai sebati. see aku dah cakap . penat kan kacau . sabar sabar , aku lupa nak cakap hang kenala hancurkan dulu biskut marie tuh . tapi janganlaa blender pulok dah, nanti jadik serbuk marie . main patah patah jea semua biskut tuh.
5)lepas tuh , hang masuk pelan pelan biskut marie tuh dalam campuran tadi . jangan laa masuk sekali gus wehh , tak muat kuali mak hang nanti .
6)teruskan kacau dan kacau sampai biskut tu sebati dan lembut sambil tambah lagi biskut sikit sikit . mintak laa tolong adik hang ke , mak hang ke , sebb penat kacau .
7)hang jangan texting or calling2 macam aku , nanti hangus sikit . hang teruskan kacau sambil kawal api . bukan susah nak kawal bukan hang guna dapur kayu api . kan?
8)kacaulaa hang sampai lebam. haha. then lenyek2 sikit bagi biskut betul2 sebati . kuat kuat sikit lenyek wehh , time sarapan hang kene makan banyak sikit . sebb hang perlu tenaga nak lenyek2 . agak2 macam pekat sangat tambah air massak sikit2 . jangan amik air paip nanti keracunan .
9) amik loyang mak hang , sapu mentega keliling bawah atas tepi segala .sambil kawan hang masukkan segala campuran tadi . sambil tuhh , hang nak yang sedap hang kena lenyek2 lagi time dah masuk loyang . jangan lenyek guna tangan , gelii laa, guna sudip nasik ke ape ke .
10)part nii aku suka , bau dapur macam bau dekat kedai kek dah . lepastu hang tggu sejuk sikit . jangan makan lagi . lahap sangat pun hang tunggu dulu laa sikit
11)nak cepat hang rendam bawah loyang tu dengan air , tapi janganlaa sampai masuk air dalam loyang wehh .
12)sabar punya sabar hang tunggu hang bolelaa pi online dulu kaa , tenok resepi dulu ka . tengok raja lawak ka . then sejuk hang masuk loyang2 sekali dalam peti ais . jangan masuk tempat ikani kan atas beku tuh . masuk dekat yang bawah ja
13)agak agak tak sabor sangat laa , dalam 15 min . hang bawak keluar then hang potong laa .
makan dengan family hang .kalau tak sedap hang suruh jugak diorang makan . pakse . sampailaa depa tak lalu dah . tapi kalau hang ikut segala petua tturun temurun aku nii . mesti kek hang habis cepat .hang nak cepat ambik yang tulisan bold merah je. itu isi2 penting nyaa . adik hang mesti nangis2 nak lagi. hang pun mesti rase gian nak buat lagi .aku tak tipu oo. kalau tak jadik carik aku yaa . ape2 pertanyaan ke . hang boleh laa lain kali tambah badam ke , kacang ke , kismis ke . kurama ke. ikut suka hang laa , jangan masuk ayam , sotong dah. BYEE .
p/s ; nanti aku nak buat dadih pulok . nantikann . slrpppp.